Dumdeas: Why I think same-sex marriage supports Christianity

... I have the tendency to think "offensive things" from time to time; but really, I believe that in order for me to truly mitigate differences between people, honest perceptions need to be expressed. I'm open to the idea that I will indeed always be 'wrong' about things, or at the least, am susceptible to being elicit and could always learn more.

Being "politically correct" is a fallacious pretense of many. I hate the arrogance that I have to deal with in the collegiate environment sometimes...

Anyway, that's my disclaimer. I'm dumb. I don't live in other people's shoes. These are mine; let's trade for a moment,  capische?

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So anyway, this week the ban on gay marriage was obliterated in Pennsylvania. If you're normal, you probably heard that on Twitter or pretty much anywhere else on the web.

Obviously approval rates will always be mixed although it's usually the older generations of people keeping it 50/50, factoring in this society's tendency to yearn for progress *insert liberal ideologue here blah blah.*

So, I guess I was the first one to make this known to my father this morning. Two women were hugging each other on the Philadelphia Inquirer's front cover. My dad asked; I said something shallow along the lines of, "Hey, at least they're pretty lesbians. That's better than dykes, right?" He reluctantly agreed.

It came up again later in the evening. 

My father suggested we go out to dinner for the holiday, and I agreed only because I'm trying to watch my weight even though the only food in my house is seriously doughnuts and ice cream. I also have become generally more appreciative of my life and family lately. Bizarrely. Our female server had a more "trendy" close-crop hairstyle. The whole gay conversation came up again:

"You know, dad, being against gay marriage isn't going to make homosexuals go away. They're here to stay. They're citizens. They're forever cause they envelop this country; the law is amendable however. Hating them serves no justice. You have the option to be ignorant or get over it at this point. "

He always makes the point that it's a shame because "kids need a father figure." He doesn't think god gave women vaginas and men penises for them to loaf. That's pretty biased considering he's procreated four times.

It's a valid point though. The God argument. 

This God argument has been around for every group ever discriminated against. Blacks were once accused of having slightly bent kneecaps that justified them as slaves. Women were delusional due to their crazy hormones, making them incapable of doing almost anything. Immigrants-- some were sent back to where they came from because their dicks were actually not big enough. 

Gay people sometimes don't have a penis, or have too many penises to gain equal couple rights. These natural "deformities"  made them inept. I think that they're just as crucial in life as anyone else though.  God made them for a reason. 

1.  Homosexuality supports Pro-Life charities. 

----- UPDATE 2015--- FOUND THIS DRAFT. Wow, this is so dumb. I'm not even going to continue it, but hey, I think this is reflective of my manipulation skills and also of how cool gay people are. Okay byyeeeeee!  Enjooiii

10 Neopets That I Want..

Because who doesn't waste their life on that website..?

1.Transparent Wocky: I've had this bizarre obsession with Skeleanimals since my cousin bought me a sketch book with a Skeleanimal kitty on it when I was younger. Now I want one of my own. Plus, I love anatomy and bones, making the art on this perfect.

2. Zombie Uni: I love zombies, and I love unicorns. 'Nuff said =)

3. Faerie Grundo: This was my dream pet when I was younger. I worked extremely hard to save up my first million neopoints to buy my pet her faerie paint brush, and then I made the mistake of trading my pet to an account that got frozen. I regretted my decision, and since then I've made a pact to get another baby Grundo to never ever trade.

4. Baby Usul: My other dream pet as a kid that I vowed to have on my account before I retired from the website.

5. Baby Draik: I love dragons, but the regular draik got ugly after the redraws. This little guy, however, rocks the one-piece tuxedo and melts my heart.

6. Pirate Lupe: Because Lupe means wolf in Latin... and because this Harry Potter look makes me howl ;)

7. White Ixi: I always thought the Ixi was amongst the prettiest of Neopets, and I always wanted one.. or five. I chose the white Ixi because I can apply the skeletal makeup to make it look like the Ixi is wearing eyeliner, which complements my favorite feature on them: their large, doe eyes.

8. Island Kacheek: RIP MARQUETE! COME BACK TO ME!

9. Royal Boy or Girl Korbat: Greek gods are love. But I saw this cool Batman ensemble so... 

10.  Some kind of Shoyru. I just love them all and have yet to decide which I want.. maybe pirate, faerie, or chocolate..


CREDITS: Dress to Impress to play with clothing items and Neocolours to play with paintbrush colors

Poker Log - Day 1

I've toyed around with making money online as opposed to at a "real job" for a while now. I spend a lot of time reading about all different avenues of making money, everything from investing in stocks, to just setting and forgetting something in an index fund, to monetizing a blog (which I'm trying to do with Trackhound), etc. Well today, I finally decided to settle on playing poker online.

Obviously making money with poker isn't easy, it takes hours of dedicated practice to become SUPER good and make the big $$$. I'm hoping to put a solid effort into teaching myself the basic theory and practicing in "play money" games on PokerStars over the next couple of months and get to a point where I start making some consistent money by September. It's okay if I'm not raking in $40K every day, I'm just looking to make some pocket change that I can live off of for a little while in school. Extra fun money to add to what my parents give me monthly. I mean all my rent is pre-paid and I'll be getting money for grocery shopping, and I don't have too many bills, so why not?

My initial trial today has been pretty successful. I'm maybe a third of the way through the "Poker Beginners" tutorial on PokerStars' PokerSchoolOnline and I already turned $160P (to denote "play money") into $1,300P. I lost most of that being stupid, but I still came out ahead. 

To get into how I lost the money, I got emotional. Someone was pissing me off by placing ridiculous bets before the flop (like $500P+..). This would be fine for some games, but the table I was playing at only allowed you to start with $400P maximum. His wild bets weren't part of any grand strategy, he was just being an asshole and went broke because of it. I lost my money by going against him on one of his stupid bets. 

If I were to do that game over again, I wouldn't have gotten into the situation with that idiot guy in the first place. I'll be setting a few rules for myself, and one will be "If I break $1,000P, cash out and return to the table with $160P". I might lower that number as I play some more games and find out what my average "downhill" point is, but for now I'll leave it at that. I'll probably cash out once or twice a week. 

So yeah, that's a little bit about what's going on. I'll be keeping track of my stats via this blog.

Starting money: $1,000P (this is the default amount they give you when you start)

High: $1,300P

Ended with: $950P

Haven't Posted in While, Here's Some Melodrama!

It's not a huge deal, but I'm just mad at someone for a stupid reason. Long story short, I was supposed to meet my friend at a sandwich shop today at 1 but I was running late so they told me to just not come and left.

Yeah, it's wrong that I was late.

But I don't know.. I feel like telling me to just stay home when I'm about to walk out the door is a little much. I guess punctuality just isn't nearly as important to me as it is to my friend.

And the fact that she was there kind of caught me off guard. I was expecting an update saying she was on her way, not a text saying she was there. A miscommunication that's no one's fault.

I also didn't even know that she was getting her own ride there, I thought I was supposed to be picking her up. She didn't tell me she was going there independent of me. Another miscommunication.

She was mad that I was running late and I "didn't tell her", but it's not as though I did it intentionally. I fell asleep waiting for her to be done with her earlier engagement (I've been struggling a lot with energy levels lately, often sleeping until two or three in the afternoon every day no matter what time I go to bed). I texted her when I woke up and realized it was 1:15.

Also, she wanted to hang out with me until 5 but I told her that I needed to be somewhere at 3:30. She was a little disappointed/annoyed at that? I'm sorry I can't spend four hours with you to get lunch.

All in all, I understand why she's mad and it's a totally valid reason. But I feel like she completely over reacted. The lunch place is nine minutes away, and I was going to head out the door. You don't need to get angry and tell me to just stay home then. I don't feel like that's an appropriate way to deal with a friend lunch. Especially since she asked me to hang out last minute because someone ELSE canceled on her. So here I am re-arranging my schedule just to be second choice and get canceled on anyway. And I passed up on going out to brunch with my family for this.

I still shouldn't have been late, but now I have resentment towards my friend for how she responded to the situation.

3(+) Reasons Maroon 5 is My Favorite Band

(*Original version from It Won't Be Soon Before Long re-release, see below for Rihanna version!)

BONUS REASONS

The entire album Overexposed is pretty great

(One More Night has a great video)

Alternate "If I Never See Your Face Again" feat. Rihanna (Good Girl Gone Bad re-release)

I Just.. What Even...

Adventures of an eBay Tycoon

Hi, all!

So I just recently got a decent sum of money from my grandparents for graduation. Instead of just spending it on stuff I wanted, I decided to start a business. So I'm now in the business of buying used/broken electronics and re-selling them on eBay. And man, business is BOOMING. I was worried that no one would call, but I have more offers than I really know what to do with.

I'm going to cap my spending at $300 this week and see what happens with trying to sell them and stuff. Some things should be easier than others to make a profit off of..

So yeah. That's that.

Making Friends on the Internet

Okay, so a little while ago I did a post about how I didn't know how to talk to people on Omegle and how my one friend meets a lot of cool people on there and I wanted to do that too and blah, blah, blah. Yeah, people on Omegle are creepy. For the most part. I've had a lot better luck typing "Reddit" into the interests thing.

But that got me thinking, if I'm meeting all these cool people on Omegle from Reddit... I'm sure there's lots of cool people ON Reddit too.

So I've recently taken up to shooting a PM to people I stumble upon that I find interesting. I actually do this as opposed to replying as a public comment most times. If I reply to their comment I find that I don't really have anything to message them about later (duh, because I wind up using that conversation thread), and I feel awkward PMing them after the fact saying "Wow I think you're really cool, we should be friends!". I find that it works better for me to PM them, have whatever conversation I was going to have, and then suggest we become Facebook friends or something of the sort.

That method has been working out pretty well for me thus far =]

And Again.. WHAT THE FUCK, LAW & ORDER?

Some 15 year old girl from a rich family gets killed by her sister, and when the older sister confesses the mother is like "Ohhh, it's okay Mercedes!" Like what the hell? If my mom was sitting with me and I was like "I murdered my sister" she'd be like "Ew, WTF get away from me" or SOMETHING. Okay, maybe she'd be in shock and just not have a reaction. But.. Just.. Not THAT reaction.

And it doesn't help that the entire reason the 20-something year old girl killed her sister is that she had sex with her fiance' (who's also from a wealthy family).

Cool, thanks for my morning dose of rape, Law & Order. Thanks.

What the Hell, Law & Order?

It's almost six in the morning here, and we have Dish network so it's infomercials galore right now. Sidenote, never, EVER get Dish. It's like the worst provider ever. Most channels switch to infomercials after midnight. The remaining channels don't really broadcast much longer, most succumbing to infomercials by 2am. Which really kind of super sucks for insomniacs...

Anyway. There's nothing to watch here right now, so I'm stuck watching Law & order and BOY is it dumb.

Apparently there's some lady whose.. Son killed two people, is essentially certifiably crazy, and has been deemed "genetically criminal"? And then the son's mother was testifying at his trial and she's pregnant and the lawyer questioning her basically tells her that her next baby is probably "genetically criminal" too (like what the fuck, is that actually a thing?) and she should abort it.

Wuttttt?

Da fuq is that shit? This show is bad. And they should feel bad.

AW OH MY GOD I JUST SAW YOUR BLOG POST ABOUT ME I LOVE YOU SO MUCH WE'RE ADORABLE <3 <3 <3

I'm so sorry for us not talking that much though, as you've seen it was because I was away =[ But it's okay, because I'm back now and we've resumed our regular schedule of talking and hanging out most every day!

I love you so much oh my god I need to write another blog post about you soon ahhhh <33333333333

Dating

For whatever reason, people I break up with don't seem to understand that I don't want to date them anymore.. I don't understand why, because I'm pretty explicitly clear with all of them that we're breaking up. Then we both do our own thing for a while, and eventually we start talking again. I don't mind talking to people I've broken up with. I don't dislike them, it just wasn't working out dating-wise. I'm perfectly fine being friends with said people, but after a little while of talking to me they get all "LOL, Jamie you're the coolest person I've dated in a while and I really kind of want to date you again". But... No...

I don't want to be a jerk, I don't enjoy letting these people down. But I don't pussy foot around it either. I'm very clear with them that I like being friends with them, and that I don't want to date them again because it didn't work out the first time. So it's not as though they're getting mixed signals from me.

Sometimes they ask if we can be "friends with benefits" and I agree to that, but long before anything ever happens they pull a bait and switch of sorts on me and get all "Well really if we're friends and you want to make out, we may as well just date again."

Guys, I don't want to date you. I'm just a whore. Sorry..

I guess It's Time I Owe You a Post on Here.

Helllo, August. Wow, I haven't seen Jamie since like mid-June.. =/

So remember when I said I was going to make you that whole video thing? I kept screwing it up like a half hour into the video, and redoing it over and over again wastes too much time.

Plus, I can spend a few hours going off in deep description on how much you mean to me, but like, I know you're too busy to really respond to it... and you'll probably call me a bitch, so I'll just fuck that. 

I feel really disconnected to you right now. I mean, it could be because you're in Europe, but then again, as you said, you've grown up quite a lot this year, and you've become a lot more of an independent person.

It's a good thing. I'm proud of you actually =]

I definitely sound like a little ol' attention whore here, but even though things are going really well for you, and you're making a lot of new friends, don't ever forget this girl here.

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But anyway, when my phone broke back in April or May or whatever, I decided to read through all my text conversations with the people in my phone. Some things make me sad.. and others still warmed my heart.. but I know I'll get too cheesy if I keep writing about it, so I'll just stop here. =P

Ours started sometime last may when I wanted to thank you for this (even though we hadn't had deep conversation in well over a year at the time of when the text was sent):

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and then I read over how our friendship slowly grew stronger over the first couple of months to the point where you became one of the most important people in my life.

And since you were there for that every step of the way, I guess I need not say more.

Thank you.

My Sleeping Pattern is Horrible =/

For the past four phones I haven't went to bed any sooner than 3am.

Three out of four of those days I went to bed past 5am.

So Apparently I Suck At Talking to People I Don't Know

I mean.. Okay, not that I suck at it on the outside. Well most times anyway.. For the most part I can get away with making conversation with people I don't know and.. It.. You know, works. Sometimes it's a little awkward at first, but it usually loosens up if I talk to someone longer. But boy do I have an internal freakout. I can't even talk to people on Omegle without being super anxious.

Sooo I'm going to work on that. I was actually trying to work on it before by talking to at least one new person a day. And I did a decent job with that for like two weeks. But I kind of fell out of doing that.. So I'm starting again. I guess I've been doing a decent job so far since yesterday I met Josh in the parking lot of Tyler and played disc golf with him (BLOGGING ABOUT THAT LATER), and today I'm on Omegle. Trying to not talk to the creepers (which is hard).. Well I mean it's fun to mess with the creepers ("62/M/AnystateintheBibleBelt", anyone? Come on, we've all done it), but I'm trying to legit talk to people too.. And right now it's not actually going that well =[

Wish me luck!

It's Super-Effective!

THIS IS THE MOST PAINFUL MOUTHWASH IN THE HISTORY OF THE WORLD OH MY GOD. I like cried the first time I used it. And you need to suffer for a minute.

That's sixty seconds of HELL.

This stuff better give me white teeth, I swear.

Jamie Quotes that Make Me Smile

So, I decided that too many times I tell Jamie that I'm going to quote her one day.. well I figure I'll just compile them all her words of wisdom here right now so that when I'm feeling down, I can come here and keep on smiling(also to keep inventory on all of them, she has a lot since she's awesome like that). She's the best. Of course, the first line I write on here from her that gave me this big idea is kinda ridiculous, but then again, that's why I love her <3
Started (6.11.12 @1:01AM)
1. "Let's see how men like semenopause"
2. "NO ONE LIKES MECHANICSBURG" (so true)
3. "The next time I have sex I have to spread their legs and go 'RELEASE THE KRAKEN!'"
4. "America is the fat forty-five-year-old quarterback living in his glory days."
5. "The world is our oyster"

The Best of Jess

- "I'm making duct tape wallets! What color do you want? We have black, blue, green, red, and orange (no.)"
- "Tasty, tasty. Burgaliscious definition make them mechanics go loco.. Lmao, what did I just write..?"
- Me: "OW I HAVE THE MOST PAINFUL MOUTHWASH EVER.." Jess: "It's super effective!"
- I look like a crack head.

Sooo Jess, this is a surprise for you! I was going to text you about this, but I decided I'd tell the whole world why I love you <3

I was telling Brittany about my super duper life drama and at one point I said: "This is why I'm so glad I have Jess. A sane, normal friend who doesn't pull dumb bullshit. We've been best friends since 8th grade and never had a fight <3"

Yeah that's it, it's nothing super duper.. But I wanted to thank you for always being there for me and being an awesome friend, so I thought a surprise blog post would be adorbs =]

Love you! <3 <3 <3 

The Words "Best Friend" Become Redefined: Angsty Teenager Bullshit

Why can't I ever talk to you about anything without you making it about yourself? I don't. Get it. I know you like me, and I'm sorry. I try my best to be respectful of that, I really do. But it really hurts that you can't put that same effort into trying to listen to me talk about what girls I'm interested in. Every single time I bring up a girl, without fail, you suffer through the conversation and then disappear directly afterwards. I dealt with it with Manna. I dealt with it with Ginger. But I just can't anymore. I try to be nice about it, I walk on eggshells around you in fear that I'll say something that'll set you off but I really just can't do it anymore. Not if you don't put some effort into listening to me, too. Just ONCE I'd like to tell you about some girl without you giving me a curt "Well I'm gonna, 'night." and promptly signing off.

But you know what pisses me off the most? When you get on your high horse and tell me that no, you don't have feelings for me. When you tell me I need to "stop making assumptions" about the way you feel.

You. Can not. Throw one of your tantrums. While my current girl-person is meeting my parents. And THEN turn around and say you don't have feelings for me.

You legitimately said "I'm just upset that she's having dinner with your parents and you do all these things for her and you only met her a month ago, and I was supposed to eat with you and your parents for your birthday and you ditched me". Those are your words, not mine. Words which don't exactly scream "I don't really care at all about who you're dating or who you're fucking".

Honest to god, if I'm wrong then stop. You know what little things upset me, it won't kill you to wait an extra five minutes to go to bed instead of getting rid of me ASAP. I get upset and angry with you because you do these dumb things, you stop talking to me when I talk about a girl I like or get pissy when I have them meet my parents, to me and it LOOKS like you have feelings for me. I'd love if you didn't, but if you do that's fine. Just admit it and I'll apologize and try to be more careful. No one can help the way they feel, I'm totally not going to be a jerk about it. But you really need to stop making me out to be the bad guy in all of this. I'm not making assumptions, I'm telling you how your actions look to me and asking for clarification. And if there's a misunderstanding then you can talk to me about it like an adult instead of throwing a tantrum and crying in a corner every time I bring a girl up.

You're supposed to be one of my best friends.

Disclaimer: The person in question isn't Jess. I have more than one friend =P